Saturday, October 3, 2009

Influence

In all seriousness looking back on pre-stroke Chisa, I often wonder why people hung out with me, I was a mess; always manic had to be something to everyone. I gave a lot at first and then focused on you so you wouldn't think to try to dig deeper. I was so insecure that if we were out, I was the out of hand drunk. Funny, but out of hand because if I didn't direct their attention to what I'm comfortable with, they may get a look at something supposed to be hidden. The deeper I look the more I can see that #tbiaffectedme and #survivinganAVMstroke‬ was the best thing that ever happened to me. It really is a ‪#‎blessing‬ I got a much needed shift in perspective, and saw how EVERYTHING was being taken for granted. Humbled me, I know now it's about the quality of moments and bonds, not the quantity. I'm no longer afraid of missing anything, because I now know I'm always ‪#‎exactlywhereimsupposedtobe‬  ‪#‎yourvibeattractsyourtribe‬‪ #‎youchooseyourday‬  ‪#‎youteachothershowtotreatyou‬  ‪#‎bettruetoyourself‬ ‪#‎bekind‬ #‎bekindtoyourself‬ ‪#‎dontsettleforless‬ #‎knowyourworth‬ ‪#‎loveyourselffirst‬ #begrateful #learnyourlesson&move4ward #bethechange #beingthechangeIwanttosee