Friday, December 31, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
hopes up....
Monday, December 27, 2010
Safeword
Even with the traumatic hurdles I've faced I honestly crave (once I feel COMPLETELY safe with you) that angry sex can be one of the hottest, more cathartic ways to agree to disagree, or stop the fight before it goes somewhere it doesn't need to.
However because of certain 'life lessons' I would need to implement a safe word, something that if uttered whispered, or screamed would magically flip the switch to gentle if I needed it. If "Ipo" being my safe word could magically comunicate my need for almost instantaneous reassurance and gentle tenderness no matter what we were sexually engaged in; that would be something I'd seriously put on the table. But most humans don't have a behavioral switch that can be triggered ALL THE TIME if it's not personally important enough for them.
But in a perfect world...
Saturday, April 3, 2010
I wonder...
How do I know that if I give in now and let my focus shift to whatever part time work I can manage, contributing what I can; that rejoining the rat race won't inevitably stagnate my recovery for good. Can anyone guarantee that I'll still get back to 100 percent while I relent from my efforts now and push that toward a job? If not, it's too big of a risk to me. I won't chance it.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Snugs
You shown me the what I've always wanted someone I am into, to feel. You seem to reciprocate exactly what I've prayed for, what I'd always secretly hoped for. Someone that I choose, to choose me as well. I am blessed.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
New goals
I would like to overcome my physical and mental handicaps
Get down to a juniors size 8
And quit my vice.