charmed

I believe with my whole heart that I have always led a charmed existence; gifted with a phenomenal family, amazing friends and some unexpected luck.  Truly a blessed life, only now I am the one blemish.  I am the mar on the scenic panorama.  I am across the board the ugly in my life, and those of my loved ones.

This isn't me feeling blue, this is me FINALLY facing facts.  I am blessed in having survived the stroke, to have recovered this much, and I will not give up because I cannot cause more ugly into the lives of those still around.  But on days like this I wonder, really wonder, if I'm doing more damage hanging on than I would if I just removed the blight on their collective radars...